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What a wicked game we play...
So I've been spending alot of time with this girl here in Fort Mac.  And her and I have a great time together.  She's awesome to hang out with and totally fun!  She's into alot of the same stuff that I'm into and just overall great to be with.

Problem is I can't fall for this girl. 

Seriously, I can't.  She made me promise I wouldn't.  Cause you see, she's into this other guy. 

So she spends all her time with me.  She calls me up and always wants to talk.  Yet she wants this other guy.  And of course I gotta hear about it.  Glarb!!!

It's just the things we do though that make it really really hard not to fall for her.   We watch movies together all the time.  We lay on the couch, she leans up against me, holding me close or lying down in my lap on top of a pillow. 

Then one night, last week, she asks me to play with her hair.  This is kind of a close thing to me.  Maybe it's nothing special to anyone else, but to me it is.  I use to play with my ex's hair all the time.  It's just something she liked and I didn't mind doing.  So when the girl here asked me to do that, it kinda shocked me.

I guess she's the touchy/feeley (feely?  Feelie?...I don't know)  kind of girl.  It's kinda weird though.  Her body language is what tosses me off.  She says she just wants to be friends, but her body language says otherwise.  I'm not use to this dammit!!

And then last night, she just (this sounds bad) latches on to me.  She's on top of me, just holding on.  Heh, she didn't want to let go because she was comfortable or so she says.  And we just sit there, holding each other.  Running our fingertips across each others arms, around our necks, thru each others hair. (Or in my case, lack of).  We're there for about an hour, and I close my eyes and get lost in the moment.

She does to...

And I'm not allowed to fall for her.  Yet she makes it so tough. 

Now any reasonable guy would either do 2 things. 

1 - Make a move and just go for it!  She's there, you're there...just do it!!  (Typical macho male approach to the situation.)


2 - Push her away and explain how you beieve this is not how friends should act.  You are only allowed contact that either involves a hug (no longer than 3 seconds), playful fighting or (my personal favorite) the high five!

I've never been one to be reasonable though.  Maybe it's my utter starvation for female contact.  Maybe it's due to the fact that I have literally  been going on a full year (longer actually) since someone held me like that.  Maybe I'm just lonely.  Who knows. 

"What a wicked game to play
To make me feel this way
What a wicked thing to do
To let me dream of you
What a wicked thing to say
You never felt this way
What a wicked thing you do
To make me dream of you

Honestly, check out the Stone Sour version of this song.  It's amazing!! 

And that's all I got to say about that.  And to all you Peggers, I'll see ya all in 10 days!!  MANITOBA HERE I COME!!

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I dislike it when girls (or guys) do this, though I totally understand it. Perhaps she is also starved for physical attention and since she isn't getting it from this other guy she's getting it from you.

Ryan, you are an awesome, amazing guy and any girl should feel lucky to be in that situation with you.
Honestly, if it's hurting you I would suggest explaining to her that you do have feelings and it's hard to keep them in perspective when she's throwing herself at you and then saying "no, we must just be friends".

When I broke up with Derek I had a fuck buddy and it was totally like that where we would cuddle and kiss and be sweet as well as other things. The difference is that we both completely understood that it was platonic because we had both gotten out of relationships. When there are feelings involved it fucks everything up.

It's not fair to you, in my opinion.

ALSO, 10 DAYS!!!!!

Well needless to say...I believe stuff like this will not be happening any more. That guy she really likes finally made a move on her this week (bout fucking time).

Thing is, I'm not upset. Part of me is kinda relieved you know. As much as I would like to be with someone, right now ain't the time. I'm too busy still focusing on me to worry about another person. Well I wouldn't say worry, but you know what I mean.

One more week!!! So excited!!! Actually...6 days!! BOOYA!!

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